I need the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your heart turns on.

If only my life could be more like the movies. I want an angel to sweep down to me like it does to Jimmy Stewart in "It's a Wonderful Life" and talk me out of suicide, I've always waited for that one moment of truth to set me free and change my life forever, but he wont come, it doesn't happen that way. All the drugs, all the therapy, fights, anger, guilt, rave, suicidal thoughts, all of that was part of some slow recovery process, the same way i went down i came back up, gradually... and then suddenly.The pills weren't the cure at all, God knows, but they gave me breathing space which allowed me to start writing again only this time it was not as if my life deppended on it.

Todo esta bien, sólo espero la toma de la bastilla para ir a la playa y sumergirme en un submarino.
Pero todo esta bien. Pronto escribiré.. y aprenderé latin, así que emocionense un poquito por el intento de escritora que soy, y cuando tengan tiempo, vean películas.